FALL DOWN 9 TIMES, GET UP 10I went back to my Pre-Season task of 'Set your goals', and looked at what I wrote in that task about 10 weeks back ...
I said at one month into the round i wanted to have achieved : A 10km run, to beat my 5km PB, and run under 35mins, and my weight to be 76kg.
I actually achieved all of those before schedule - (my weight is now 77kg, but I did achieve 76kg by the 4 week mark)... WAKE UP MANDY, THAT IS NOT FAILURE.
Right now I am definitely behind schedule to achieve my next lot of goals, my three month goals, but I can do it.... and If I don't, I will pick myself back up, dust myself off and keep going.
This journey is definitely a rollercoaster of ups and downs, highs and lows, successes and failures... but at the end of the ride I will be ecstatic that I did it.
I have done too much, and worked to hard to throw my hands in the air and say 'its too hard, I give up'. I've done that before, and it doesn't work, I end up back at the start wishing I was where I am now... that is one huge waste of energy. I just have to keep going, one foot in front of the other, one day at a time, forever.... there is no end, this is a journey to a new life, a new lifestyle, and when I get there the purpose is not to then stop and turn around, but to enjoy the view, and then start the journey to a new more exciting, dream fulfilling destination.
I have started this journey before, multiple times, and I always turned back when it got too hard, I have even got this far in the journey at least 3 times, and didn't make it to the end, I can't do it this time, I have to keep moving, I am running out of time.
This time is different though, I must admit. I was talking with Cass last night and we had a little lightbulb moment... the other times were diets, be it weightwatchers or similar, and exercise was the secondary focus. I would exercise to get bonus points etc, but I would never really like it.